Blogging Out of A Block

It happened again. I created a challenge for myself to get myself out of a block, and then got blocked after the deadline came.

In this case, my challenge was creating a blog post with a 15 minute time limit for the month of June. It went off swimmingly. I dared myself to share myself more authentically. I did some writing that thrilled me with its honesty. I got over my perfectionism. I learned how to do more breezy, shorter posts.

But... what happened after June 30th?

A three week block of postlessness that's ending right now.

I am currently in Massachusetts, visiting my parents with Mio. I am off my routine and in the land of easy comfort. Mio is in day camp. And I find myself with some delicious bug-free free time. But then the pressure is on.

Here are some difficult questions I am considering that I thought I'd share as a way to make contact again.

    How do I share here when I am not sure what I have to say?

    How do I convey my story in a way that integrates all my contradicting selves yet communicates what I need to say in a relatively precise way? How do I weave my personal history into a story that people relate to both in its specificity and its universality? How can I use simplicity to express complexity?

    How do I stay connected to my authentic self while being away from my guitar, microphone, studio, husband, classes, therapist?

    How do I reach more people?

    How do I not spend all my money in the land of plenty?

    How do I get feedback about my art? Meaning, how do I know if I am really reaching people with my personal or universal streams of consciousness? And if not, how do I go about getting closer to that connection?

    How do I decide how transparent I am willing to be?

    How do I help my parents accept my choice to live in Mexico?

    A better question: how do I help myself accept their lack of acceptance?